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Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 14:52:52 GMT

www.parkerlynne.blogspot.com

i give up this xanga BS

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 04:13:14 GMT

Life is too short to be disappointed. So shape up or get the fuck out.

I try so hard to care and some people fight it so much. Why?

It is 2 months til graduation. Each day, I'm gonna do it up right.

Love you and miss you, Eve.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 07:08:02 GMT

Life is so confusing. I feel like a yo-yo, acting like a kid one day and forced to think like an adult the next. Where has college gone? My grades have come back and I had the best semester of my college career so far and I only have one left. I am terrified of the real world and being forced to become a part of it. I want to be in school for the rest of my life. I love learning, talking, and thinking. But then again, I'd love to go back home and get a little apartment with my best friend and just LIVE. Ok ok, mostly I just want her dog cuz he is fucking adorable.

I also miss the innocence of the early teen years. The days of sneaking hugs and holding hands between classes. The thrill of just being able to be close to the person that was special to you, feeling like a rebel when you talked on the phone after your parents went to bed. Back before everything was so complicated with sex. I'm not sure that I would trade it though, for the sensuality and maturity of relationships now. To me at least it seems as if there is more trust and loyalty in relationships, when people say "I love you" they mean it and not only do they mean it, but that meaning has a depth that most young teens just don't understand.

I used to long to be in a relationship whenever I was not in one, I was far too insecure with myself for a very long time. I am thankful every day for the friends that I have that have helped me truly become myself and enjoy my senior year of college ridiculously. I may not have had the best grades, the wildest nights out, or the hottest hookups, but I don't really regret a single thing about these past 3 years.

Maybe a Marilyn Monroe quote would fit in good here :

"I'm pretty, but I'm not beautiful. I sin, but I'm not the devil. I'm good, but I'm not an angel"

It has never been my wish to be the extreme of anything. I don't want to be the nicest, craziest, or smartest. Ok maybe the smartest but whatever. I have said and done bad things but I have also done wonderful things that you may not ever know about. I try not to advertise myself. I cry too easily when people are mean and I'll never be the bitchy girl. Sometimes I feel like I am so many different people at once that even I don't really know who I am but that's ok because its gonna be figured out eventually. So if you're reading this, don't presume that you know me or think that you have me all figured out. You're wrong. There are precious few people in this world that know me truly, I count them among my best friends and its not been an easy journey. Things are complicated.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Tue, 11 Dec 2007 06:14:36 GMT

I have, quod he, herd seyd, ful yoore ago,
Ther may no man han parfite blisses two, --
This is to seye, in erthe and eek in hevene.
For though he kepe hym fro the synnes sevene,
And eek from every branche of thilke tree,
Yet is ther so parfit felicitee
And so greet ese and lust in mariage,
That evere I am agast now in myn age
That I shal lede now so myrie a lyf,
So delicat, withouten wo and stryf,
That I shal have myn hevene in erthe heere.

I'll translate it for you nosy bitches later.

-edit-

I guess its later and I need to translate the above for you.

I have," said he, "heard said, and long ago,
There may no man have two perfect blisses,
That is to say, on earth and then in Heaven.
For though he keeps from the seven deadly sins
And, too, from every branch of that same tree,
Yet is there so complete felicity
And such great pleasure in the married state
That I am fearful, since it comes so late,
That I shall lead so merry and fine a life,
And so delicious, without woe and strife,
That I shall have my heaven on earth here.

Friday, December 07, 2007

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 05:56:50 GMT

Since it has been pointed out to me, my away message does say "Save water, shower together!" and yet I have been showering alone for over 3 months now. So in order to rectify this issue, I will be taking applications for shower buddies.

I provide the shower, towels, and half the company. You provide whatever you wish to wash with (or else you'll be smelling fairly girly) and the other half of the company.

Please submit answers for the following questions to parkerlynne@gmail.com . Please no sarcasm or jokes. Girls need not apply (sorry to ruin any fantasies boys).

Full name and DOB:

Location:

Medical History (stds are NOT ACCEPTABLE):

School affiliation (dook fans are NOT ACCEPTABLE):

Days/nights you are available for work (excluding any important athletic events):

Transportation if any:

Compensation required by you:

Personal statement of why you should be selected(must be a full paragraph at minimum):

Thanks in advance for your application!

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 03:25:17 GMT

Wow. He looked good in that suit today. I enjoyed hearing about the interviews, I wish I had that sort of confidence.

Friday, November 09, 2007

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 06:35:17 GMT

I have an entourage. That's how cool I am.

Laundry and mischief tomorrow.

Party time on Saturday!

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 05:52:35 GMT

Life has been great lately. I love my friends. Hehe and I smell good.

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 05:35:49 GMT

I did a little thinking about you today and the last things we said to eachother. You said that I should be happy for you because we were supposed to be friends. If we were friends then you would consider my feelings and know what to say and what not to say. I am happy, not happy for you but happy without you. I am glad you're totally gone now because as soon as I was getting comfortable again you would decide to pop up and lay a few phrases on me that would totally ruin my mindset. How could you come talk to me, looking for closure? You were the one that did the closing, making decisions and informing me of them dead last. I forgave you for so very many things, things you never appreciated (and admitted it!), and finally I reached my breaking point. I was fine before you and I'm fine after you and I'm sorry if thats a disappointment to you because secretly I think you wanted me to hurt. So best of luck to you and your new girl, I hope you treat her better and I hope that she doesn't put up with it if you don't, because that was my one failing. I let you get away with some ridiculous bullshit and when I didn't and got mad, I felt like it was still my fault. We're not going to be able to be friends because you have become someone that I wouldn't want to be friends with, ever.

I am fine. I am better off. And, like my parting words through Jennifer, you can go to hell.

Friday, October 26, 2007

Fri, 26 Oct 2007 20:37:36 GMT

Senior year is amazing. This year is going to be incredible. I could not ask for better friends or awesome things to do. I'm vaguely worried about the future but then again I am confident that no matter what happens, everything will turn out for the best.

I am better off now.